Hello there

I am having such a hard time blogging at work lately (and looking at private blogs). I wonder if my work finally got the hint that I don't spend all my time "working", but pretending like I am working and actually working on my Blog...haa. In any case I have had a hard time logging in and I think it is a new firewall they have. Oh well, I can work around it, it just is a hassle and sometimes means I have to leave a goofy comment, like "hi", on someones post to get me logged in. Weird.

So, an update...I appreciate all of your awesome feedback. You guys made me feel so much better about how I was feeling than the darn school did. I took a breather last week, talked it over with my DH and a few of you who had some great insight. When I looked at it again this week (thinking I was too emotional last week to look at the full picture), the issue was solved for me. The biter has been moved up to the next classroom. Hopefully that will draw an end to the biting (at least of Miss J). Even if she didn't move up, I was going to give it some time anyway and see if there was another incident. I was figuring that the school and the mom must have had an action plan they were working on together and that really, in their mind, it was no business of mine what the plan was. The fact that they were "working" on it was enough for me (in their eyes). If, however, it did happen again...well...you better bet the daggers would come flying. I would want answers and would bring it up to the owner level.


It is so hard, being a mom, not knowing what you should do about situations like this. A lot of time you are so emotionally involved (it is your kid after all) that those emotions sometimes overrun you and you start thinking illogically. But what are we supposed to do...they are our kids, they are the fruit of our loins, they are our blood and guts, they are our apple seed. Why wouldn't we react to things emotionally sometimes?


I think, though, sometimes you have to determine if you are hearing your gut talk, or your emotions talk. And often I have to take a step away, think of something else, do something else, maybe even talk to someone else, and then take a look at it again. I didn't say it was easy, but I often find when I do that, the issue either gets resolved on its own or I have thought it through constructively enough I can talk about the issue from a non-emotional standpoint and make a better point overall.


Interesting...why can't I do that with food?


Yeah, I am craving a devils food chocolate covered doughnut and rather than re-direct my mind and eat something healthy, then come back to it to see if I really want it or if it was just my emotional being wanting it...I grab it and shove it in my mouth so fast that I don't have time to think about it. Until...later. Then I think about it and wonder why the heck I did that...and I feel yucky and fat and like such a pig. Ughh.


Constant battle with myself. It has gotten better since I have lost some weight and been going to WW and really working out. Those cravings have lessened up a bit. But, I still get it every once in awhile. And you know what. I NEVER say...ohhh, that was so worth it. I am always beating myself up about it. Not healthy.


In other news...this weekend we are having a memorial ride (motorcycle) for my FIL. He was a big Harley guy and spent a lot of his time working on his bike and riding with his friends on the weekend. So this is going to be a great way to remember him. DH and I will be riding on my FIL bike (that will be pretty emotional), and my MIL and SIL will be riding with some other good friends of ours. I am really looking forward to it. It is supposed to be beautiful out on Friday...


Miss J is growing with leaps and bounds. We do think she has a milk allergy. Which is so weird because she drank milk based formula from 6-months and eats cheese and yogurt and all that kind of stuff no problem. But the minute we started her on whole milk, she started getting all bound up, runny nose, and breaking out a bit on her cheeks. Oh, and BM's like you wouldn't believe. At least 5-6 per day. So, we are on Soy milk for now to see how that works. So far so good. I might try an organic whole milk again next week just to see how she reacts...to test if it is an allergy or if it was just something that she ate or was teething or something weird. You never know with kids.


She is getting such a personality...it is great. She nods yes and no and responds to our questions...usually with a yes (because I am not sure she really understands, but may just listen to our inflections). But we usually ask things like, "are you ready for your bath", or "do you want to go have breakfast", or "do you want to wear this today". I should try to stick something in there sometime like "would you like to have liver and broccoli for dinner tonight"...see what she says. He he.


Not sure that I have showed you these pics...they are too cute: