2.2

That is what I lost in pounds the first week back on WW. I guess that is good...I was hoping for something more like 5lbs, not just 2. But I lost, that is what I should focus on.

I really should be more hyped...I am really happy about starting something new...that I know works. Yesterday, I actually had visions of being able to fit into my old size 8 wool pants this winter. When I lost weight the last time, over 2-years ago, I went out and bought all new clothes for work and even had a few dress pants taken in...it was so fun to go into a tailor and have them cut out all that extra fabric (kind of funny to look at the label which says size 12 but have it fit like an 8...guess I can't really sell them to resale or I might make some other woman feel horrible that the pants say size 12 but they are too small for her.)

The week has been really good being on WW. I realized I was really overeating and thought all along I was eating healthy. But you have to bear in mind what is healthy when you are pregnant and breastfeeding is different than what is healthy for WW or just losing weight in general. I could not believe the first day I started tracking my points how many points some of the regular foods I was eating were. Gosh, who was I kidding?

So not only has my desire for those fattening foods decreased, but my desire for exercise has increased. That is a change...going from, "oh, I really don't feel like exercising at lunch today, maybe I will go read a book and sit outside"...to "I am going to work out at lunch, then go home and walk the dog."

Amazing what a change in attitude and a little motivation can do. I don't know what really turned me...I guess it was when I started writing down what I ate when I realized how much I snack and sneak food (meaning I eat it and erase it from my mind so I don't feel guilty about it). Yeah...that is what my life consisted of...sneaking food. I would tell myself...If I eat it fast enough I won't have time to think about it or even tell myself NO, you don't need that. That is what my life consisted of. Gosh...I feel like I made a complete 180...and am happy.

Even though I only lost 2lbs...I am going to keep trucking. If I lose 2lbs a week, it will take me another 9 weeks to lose the 20lbs. So, that would bring me to September 12th. I would LOVE to lose that weight by September 3rd (my daughter's first birthday). To me, that would be a wonderful gift...and I might not be so shy to get my picture taken either. There is something about looking at pictures of me lately that makes me feel horrible. I look fat...I look like I am still pregnant. And I think, years from now, when I look back at those pictures, I am going to wonder why I was so fat...and if I was pregnant, still, or again...or what the heck was going on.

So, that is my goal. 20lbs by September 3rd. I can do it...I know I can. Just keep my eye on the goal (and those size 8 wool pants)!

Other than that...I think Miss J is done with her teething again. She is sleeping through the night, but just getting up too early lately. 5:30 has got to quit. I would be more happy with like 6 or 6:30. I try to let her play and talk to herself a bit before I go in...but often it is only about 15min and then she is crying (mainly because she has thrown her bink onto the floor).

Tomorrow I took a vaca day since my DH has that day off (he works Saturday instead), and we were going to try to plant his burning bush he got for Father's Day and do some other gardening stuff. That is, if it doesn't rain. There is like a 30% chance of rain...so I am not sure. If it does end up raining, we were going to take Miss J down to the Shed Aquarium for her first visit to see the fishies...part of me would rather do that than garden...but...got to take advantage of any time we have while she is at school in order to get things accomplished around the house (you just cant' do much with a pre-toddler who won't sit still and only takes a couple naps during the day). I don't know how stay at home mom's do it sometimes...when I am at home with her, I NEVER get anything done. I guess you learn to schedule it in.

See ya!