I love you gals....you all had such different takes on "Is it Friday yet." It made me smile so much because everything is relative. Relative to you and your situation and what you have going on. I love it!!
The reason I am really looking forward to the weekend is to actually spend some quality time with DH and Miss J. DH, as of right now, has Saturday off. So we have our last day of swim lessons that I hope DH wants to join us, plus we have a group from church who is having a cookout in the afternoon that he will get to join us for. Then Sunday, just some more quality time, maybe a bike ride or a trip to the park or something.
I know DH misses Miss J (and me). He has barely gotten to see her much this week. Maybe 20 minutes a day. She has been so fussy I have been putting her down early each night, then she is sleeping in or just getting up as DH is walking out the door. Ugh...it is hard on him, and me, and Miss J.
Can I just say, I feel like I am trying to "go with the flow." I am trying to let things take their course, not fight them not battle them and let the path be let for me...but at the same time, I feel like I am sitting in the middle of a river...THAT IS NOT MOVING!!! I am just sitting there, not making any progress toward anything. Not toward the shore, not toward the rapids ahead...just sitting.
I don't know where this job is going for DH. It is money in the bank for now. But it is nothing that we can do long term. I am having a heck of a time doing everything every day. He leaves every morning by 6:45am and by the time DH gets home Miss J is asleep and him and I sit down in front of the TV with dinner and fall asleep by 9:30. Wash and repeat.
DH is miserable...not only because he doesn't get to see his family, but he has an hour commute each way, he gets crap from his boss' each day, he struggles with his morals of sticking around a bit longer to "complete the task he began" rather than brushing it off on someone else...or just not caring and brushing it off on someone else (hence the reason he usually doesn't get home until 7:30 or later). But, again, it is a paycheck and money in the bank.
Though, we really haven't seen the "flow" of money in the bank yet. He has gotten a paycheck and a nice commission check, but that flowed out the door so fast I don't think we even got to say HI. And that has how I felt about our economic stimulus check, about my two bonus' I have gotten, about our savings...
So I feel like I am sitting, waiting for something to happen. Waiting for the wind to blow to move me down the river, or even a bird to just sit (or poop) on my shoulder to let me know there is still a world out there and we will get moving soon.
I am getting so discouraged but in the same moment I am trying to be patient. I KNOW that there is a plan and that things will work out...but I don't SEE it right now.
So I wait, and wait...I guess I should try to enjoy the fact that at least it isn't raining or storming. Things really could be worse...I know that. So I just have to enjoy the non-movement for awhile...because it is sure to pick back up soon!!
I am going to my woman's church group tonight (I didn't go last week because I spent some quality time with DH), but I am really looking forward to this. Miss J will be with grandma and grandpa again. So I will actually get to do a bit of (window) shopping tonight and maybe grab a bit to eat...spend some solitude time, then off the the class. I will really enjoy that.
Thanks to all you gals for continuing to read this boring and repetitive saga that I am going through. Usually these things don't last this long. I usually have a bad day here or there, but things pick up and I am back to my perky self. This has really been a struggle for me, and I appreciate your prayers and thoughts.
Hope you gals have a nice weekend...
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Quick update...my glucose test for gestational diabetes came back normal!! Yea....Now I can go eat my cookies for my snack!
4 comments:
You may not feel like you are moving forward and are tired of just sitting still while the river runs past you........but as you say, at least it isn't storming and the river isn't running over you. And you aren't going backwards! It is sooooooo hard to wait. But remember that God has a plan and in HIS time, he will reveal it. I have had a lot of people remind me of that recently as I sit and wait to see what His plan is for our family. I have never been good at waiting patiently :0 It really comes down to faith. Faith is a hard concept and even harder to keep a hold of. I will continue to pray for you and your family!
BTW - I know exactly what you mean by $$$ coming in and going out before you realize what happened to it. They really should have just sent those stimulus check to the gas companies :-)
Enjoy your cookies!!!!!
Sounds like you guys have a great weekend planned! I hope it turns out to be better than expected...sounds like you need it. :-)
Glad to hear your glucose test was good...
please forgive me, but all I could think of with your post titled "The River" was Garth's song by the same name... and believe it or not, it's relevant. "And I will sail my vessel till the river runs dry. Like a bird upon the wind, these waters are my sky, I'll never reach my destination if I never try, so I will sail my vessel till the river runs dry." Take his advice and "Keep the good Lord as your captain" and you can make it through anything... rough waters or stagnant ponds.
You are in my prayers.
Yea for cookies...I need a package right now. :) Are you sharing?
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