97 DAYS??!?!?!!!
What the heck, where did my over 100 days left go? All of a sudden I only have 97 days left. That is just over 3-months? Wow, that explains it all (really, I wish it explained it ALL, but doesn't)
I wonder if you still have "cycles" while pregnant. In terms of hormone cycles, or are you supposed to be level throughout all of pregnancy? There are days/weeks where I feel like I have major PMS (and I didn't really have PMS much before pregnancy, even off the pill, so this is a bit weird for me).
Like today, again, a little bit of a breakdown when Miss J began to cry uncontrollably because she didn't want her skirt buttoned. Then it was crying for a good 30 minutes, walking out to the car and into the car...until we got on the road.
Sidenote...I think we have come to the conclusion, or at least I have, that these meltdowns are just that, meltdowns. She starts crying for some reason (gets forced to do something she doesn't want to, is told no, etc) and then it spirals into "I am crying, and I don't remember why, but I cannot help it because I don't know how to verbalize what I am feeling, so it just feels good to cry." No bit of consolation will help her, or trying to get her mind off of it, or trying to tell her I understand she is upset....nothing.
Don't we all feel that way sometimes. We are upset, but don't know why we are upset, and don't know how to verbalize what we are feeling, and it just feels good to cry or whine or whatever. Gosh, to be 22 months old again.
So her crying this morning depressed me again, made me feel like an incompetent mother, I don't know how to console my daughter, which spiraled again into "I can't do this every morning and every night on my own, what are we going to do about DH's job and the money situation...yada yada yada..."
It is like those PMS emotions are all over the board...along with my face breaking out all over...along with me craving Chinese food and sweets and fattening yummy stuff!!!
So does anyone know if we continue to have cycles during pregnancy? Even just mild increases/decreases in estrogen/progesterone? I would feel soooo much better knowing that these highs and lows can be completely explained by my hormones rocketing more drastically than before I was pregnant.
Of course, I could just blame it on the fact that I am carrying a BOY!! You know how hormonal they can be...or not be. Maybe that is it, when I was PG with Miss J she balanced out some of my high/low hormones because she was a girl, but now that I am having a boy there are no hormones to share with and help balance them out.
Doesn't that make complete sense?? I think so.
Weekend was good. DH had 3-days in a row off (won't be like that from now on). The 4th of July Miss J took an early morning small nap and then a late afternoon long nap so she was able to stay up until 9:30 for the fireworks. Funny though, she fell asleep 5-minutes into the fireworks. Yes...during the fireworks she fell asleep. Who does that? I guess someone who is used to going to bed at 8pm!!!
The rest of the weekend was filled with relaxing, swim lessons, dinners on the patio, swimming in the plastic backyard pool (while alternating with the sandbox), running errands, wrapping up some small and meaningful projects around the house...it was nice. I was happy to be able to spend it with my favorite daughter and favorite husband!!
See, life isn't so bad Mrs. LCP!!! It will get better. God has a plan for you and for your hubby and for the money and job situation!!
OK...I am ready to be let in on the secret!!
Hope you have a great Monday and the week continues on the steady path!! I will try to post some pictures this week (I know, promises promises).
7 comments:
I think being hormal during pregnancy is par for the course. I've been an absolute horror lately-even I recognize it. I had a bit of a filter before now I have no filter at all. I say EVERYTHING I am thinking. Let me tell you how it's going with the in-laws LOL.
Being emotional- well that's normal. :)
it's just too normal to be emotional while pregnant. here at the end of this pregnancy-everything makes me cry. things that wouldn't before just hit me the wrong way-and then I do that thing where because I can't do this, it becomes this,and then this. it gets away from me and i cry. Miss J is probably doing the same thing. it does feel good to cry!
happy under 100 btw. does this second time around fly or what?
My hormones with Tatum were much worse than they are now with boy ... but of course they were bad when I had to send her to daycare the first week ... haha
Hang in there and remember crying just to cry is good for us!
Poor girl, she sounds like my girl--crying for some random reason. Hang in there for those 97 days. They will be over before you know it!
I definitely hear you on the ups and downs of pregnancy! Last week was one of the down weeks for me. It can get so frustrating! Hope you are feeling better soon!
Congrats - you're in the home stretch now. I have no idea about the hormone stuff, but I would guess that there are definitely fluctuations that occur...but then again, maybe it is just because you're having a boy! ;)
How fun to have a blog friend! Your family is precious. I loved this entry because I read it right after I had a mini meltdown of my own over my child being ugly and pushing/hitting others at the gym for no reason at all and the conflict of how to discipline a 2 year old who doesn't yet understand, but yet you want to teach them to be kind. Speaking of feeling incompetent. I up and left in a hurry and sobbed all the way home! Pregnancy hormones are such a joy!!!
PS I have to say the tears I shed in the car have by far been the best consequence so far. I think it scared the daylights out of Ky. :)
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