"Gotta have faith"

Hello friends...sorry I left you hanging. It has been a busy, but good week.

Sleeping...not so good. DH did go get me a "cuddle pillow". Kind of looks like a "comma" and the big part goes under your belly and the small part goes between your legs. It has helped, a little. I am no longer tossing with the big body pillow trying to get it positioned all the while pulling covers of DH and tossing the pillow all around him. But, I still hurt and wake up a few times in the night. I hope it will get better and that I can find some comfort to sleep through the night again. The waking up multiple times really wears on your sleep time...and thus I am a bit groggy during the day. Ugh.

DH new job...he filled out an application on Monday and got a call from the guy yesterday that he wanted to meet with DH tonight. It sounds a LOT better than where he is now. 7:30-5pm Monday - Friday, and he would be the only writer. Him and the manager. Which is a really change of pace from working with 5-other writers. But he would do everything, not just writing up the cars, he would do warranty stuff, disperse the tickets to the techs, follow up, etc. I guess this place has one of the top Customer Service ratings for Mazda, one of 6 in the US (I guess). So that goes right along with the morals that DH has of treating customers right from the get go so that they will be return customers and build trust in their service guy(not screwing them into buying stuff they don't need on their first visit and thus discouraging them from ever coming back). DH has a REAL issue for places that run like that...because really, wouldn't you rather be treated honestly and fairly from the beginning, which would then make you feel more comfortable to go back to that place/person for additional work in the future. And you know there will be more work on a car in the future...and at some point, may be a LOT of big stuff...but then you are that go to person and will eventually get that work. That is how I think business should work...though it doesn't give you the $$ right up front, it should balance out in the long run. Anyway...he has his interview today and I think it will go really well. We will know tonight if they extend him and offer and how DH feels about the manager and the facility.

Daycare...I finally got the OK from both grandmas to agree to watch Miss J for two days each week for the next couple of months...in order to allow us to save some much needed $$ on daycare. And Miss J's school is on board with us dropping her to attending 3-days a week and also being flexible should something come up and we need to leave her on either of her days off. Why didn't we do this sooner? My mom was not totally on board with it. My MIL was, but my mom just retired and was not ready to commit to 1-day per week. She and her husband really want to start travelling and if she committed to watching Miss J 1-day a week, they wouldn't have that flexibility to do whatever or go wherever, whenever. Which, I totally respect. I mean really, after working your life at a crappy job that you have been beaten down on...to finally get a chance to be free, do what YOU enjoy and want to do...I would take that chance too. Not that she doesn't LOVE Miss J, but to have a weekly commitment for who knows how long and not be able to live your dreams...I get it. So we told her it would only be for a few months, until BP2 is born and then depending on DH's job, depending on if my job would let me change hours to 4-10hr days, depending on a lot of things, we would reassess and see if we should change schools for more flexibility, or take them completely out of school if DH becomes a SAHD. I don't know what it looks like right now, except that the next few months Miss J will be with grandmas and we will save us $250 a month!! I might even keep her on that schedule once BP2 is born and I could watch them both a couple times a week until my maternity leave is up. Again, I don't know what it looks like though...faith and trust, that is all I can do right now.

So things are looking up a bit. DH 's job may be changing soon. Sleeping is getting a little better. We will start saving a bit of $$ for the next few months. I feel like the wind is starting to pick up a bit and the boat is starting to drift...in a good direction. I sure hope so, this has been a crazy couple of weeks/months.

I have my class again tonight, Miss J is staying with grandma and having breakfast with daddy in the morning (he is working the 12-9 shift tomorrow). I will get some me time and spiritual time in. Saturday we have a B-day party for a friend of Miss J's from school. She is turning 2yrs old. Then on Sunday, after church, DH wants to drive up to MIL house and pick up his dads motorcycle and drive it back home with us. He has been jonesing to ride the bike for awhile...and now might be his chance. I am kind of bummed I won't get to ride with him, but that is OK. I am sure (and hope) the bike will be around awhile longer and maybe, just maybe will be passed down to DH himself. I think right now my MIL still enjoys going out to the garage and seeing it there, kind of a comfort thing since FIL passed away.

Speaking of that, the anniversary of his death is Aug 25th. Wow, can't believe it has been a year already. I think my MIL wants to have the whole family go to Kiddie Land that weekend...that is a local fun park (that will be closing this fall after many many years). Miss J would be the 3rd generation to go there. Then the next weekend is Miss J's 2nd birthday. Not sure what we are doing for a party this year...or how big to have it...guess I better get planning.

Anyway...I am off to Turbo Kick during lunch. Then a healthy lunch (I am sooo hungry now) and back to work. Yes, I actually have to work.

Thanks all for your prayers and well wishes. I know God has a plan and is watching and guiding us through this tough time. He is there and will always be there, just hard to see Him sometimes.

To quote George Michael..."Just gotta have faith...!"