God is Good...and other weekend stories

You know, I DID create a post on Friday, but blogger ate it. I have never had that happen and I was so bummed. It was a good update. I guess this one will have to make up for it.

I went home early on Friday...not feeling too good. Mainly loopy. I had a bit of an upset stomach too on Thursday and Friday. I think the loopiness is from lack of sleep and stress, but the stomach stuff, not sure. Maybe just the way the baby has been sitting. He is moving around so much, I feel him to somersaults and swear he is tearing my insides up. So there are times I have really bad indigestion where he is probably kicking my stomach, and other times I feel huge and swollen when he is probably sitting on my vena cava vein in my back and causing bad circulation. But this weekend was just the worst, went from feeling fine to feeling horrible to feeling fine. Ugh...just want that swing to be over.

Sunday, I had a breakdown. I slept horribly Saturday night. I was up at 4am (among 3-4 other times during the night) but couldn't get back to sleep this time until about 5am. Then Miss J was up crying at 6am. I got up to bring her to the couch and maybe sleep a bit more...she wanted to be up. So I tried to change her diaper and she threw a screaming fit!! I had to put her back in her bed and walk away because I was sooo overtired and exhausted. About 5 minutes later I went to get her and we tried to have breakfast...all the time being a fussy 23 month old. I started breaking down and just crying...about all the stuff going on. DH walked in and told me to go back to bed and he would take care of her. So I went back to bed for 2hrs. By that time we missed church (which I was bummed because we were really planning on going). But I felt a little better after I slept some more. I think DH really got a feeling for how stressed out and emotional I have been lately and how his long hours are really weighing on me. Not new news...but really saw it in me that day.

I ended up running some errands and spending time with DH and Miss J...it was relaxing. Didn't get a ton done, but some.

Friday, DH said the manager at the new dealership called him and wanted him to come in for a second interview with him...DH had an interview with the GM on Wednesday (which by the way...was completely not what he expected it to be...all his other interview have been very casual and laid back, this was a typical 1hr with questions like "what are your strengths and weaknesses", which DH wasn't really prepared for...but he must have done OK). That was good news that they wanted him back for another interview.

So this morning, while DH was on his way to work, he talked to the manager again who said he wanted DH to come in to talk about salary and starting date...in other words...offering him a position!! That was such great news for a Monday morning. But, we still need prayer. I don't want to think we are out of the woods yet because there is still salary and vacation and more details that need to be discussed. And we pray that this would be a GOOD change. We know it wouldn't be perfect, we know there are still the typical BS dealership things that need to be dealt with, but the stress of long hours and degrading bosses and working weekends would be gone. That is HUGE in my book. But, again, still not out of the woods. I just continue to pray that God would open the doors that need to be opened and close those that do us no good. That our lives would balance out and normalize (as much as can be) again.

I will say, this is probably the hardest time I have gone through...and yet we are still a very happy family, treading with our heads just above water. Not to say there are not times and moments (as previous posts have noted), but never as bad as it could have been. I say Praise God for his graces and his glory through all of this.

Please continue to pray for this job opportunity. That this would be a great fit for DH and that he would find peace with doing this automotive job stuff again, even if it is for short (thinking a few years) until God places His will in DH 's hands again. And that the salary and daily pressures would be reasonable.

That has been the most difficult thing for me. Not knowing what the future holds. Not knowing what next month looks like in terms of finances, or daycare, or lifestyle. I am a planner by nature, and this has taken a LOT of faith from me. Whew...

Thanks for your constant reading and prayers...God is Good!!