I love Prayer

I love how prayer works!!

I took all your suggestions, and prayed hard about that job opportunity that I was so flustered and wacky about. I did end up forwarding my friends resume to my boss without a second thought (that didn't take much waiting for an answer to my prayers). I knew that was the right thing to do - it was just one of those questions in my mind where I felt pressured all of a sudden to make a decision do I try for the job or not. It wasn't any longer on my terms...there was another force, forcing me to make a quick decision.

Any case...I continued to pray about it. I even pursued seeing what my current pay grade was (without going through my boss), and talked to a co-worker who was previously a buyer and asked his opinion of the job position and the boss, etc. I talked with my DH about it and after talking about it aloud, kind of determined it might be a step back, not forward. But, still continued to pray about it.

Then Friday night, I ended up going out with some friends from work (my first outing with people from this company and I have worked here for 2 1/2 years). So I thought it might be fun, see how they are in the social setting, meet some new people, etc. So, some of the people there started talking about the Buyer job opportunity and how they were applying for it and who was applying for it and the competition, etc. I realized, very quickly that it was definitely would not be a step up in pay or responsibility. Just based on the positions of the people that were trying for the job, currently their positions are expediters, which I am pretty sure are on a lower pay scale than I am, and the Buyer job would be a small step up for them. I just kind of assumed it would not be a huge change for me.

Again, not that I am looking for a pay increase, or huge jump in responsibility. And not that I consider myself so much better than them (I don't want to sound all high and mighty about my current job or pay). But it would be kind of silly to regress in a company rather than progress. So I emailed my HR person today and found out it would drop me down two pay grades if I went for the position. That is pretty significant and not something worth pursuing for me.

Interesting though. I went through that whole thought process of thinking this "sign" or opportunity might be for me...when really it may have been for someone else - like my girlfriend. I think I learned from this...it is not always about me. I need to look at the bigger picture, see past my "selfish" glasses and see what God is doing through me, not necessarily for me.

I will post later about my Mother's day....it was just perfect!! So much to say about it, I don't have time right now. Either tonight or tomorrow.

Love you girls...thanks for your feedback and prayers!!