Long overdue update...

Hi Girls...I am still here. Just numb from all the action going on over the past week+. It is all such a blur, and now that I am back at work, it is starting to really hit me. I guess it is back to reality. Here are some highlights...

*The visitation/memorial went very, very well. It was nice to see so many people and so much love and support shared. None of us really wanted to "go through" with it, but since time could not be stopped, there was not much choice. Long days, that all seemed to blend together. I spent most of the time trying to keep Josey at bay and make sure she wasn't causing too much or a ruckus and making sure she saw everyone who has not met her yet. She is quite the social little girl. The highlight: DH leading a group of Harley riders on a "memorial ride" from the local HD dealer to the church for the memorial service. People said that they heard the bikes coming about a mile away when they were inside the church, and they went out to greet them...it was very emotional. Complete silence except for the rumble of the bikes (I am tearing up just thinking about it).

*Josey's 1st Birthday was a perfect ending to a difficult week. It definitely was the cap on the bottle. We had a barnyard theme, like EIEIO and farm animals. It was too cute. We had hay bails and a little petting zoo with her stuffed animals, and horse and pig balloons...it was very cool. I will post pictures as soon as I get them downloaded. It all went so well and everything fell into place. And like I said, was a beautiful ending to a sad week.

*DH is still out of a job and trying to get his unemployment check. But, there is funky paperwork stuff going on and he has to meet with someone, but with all the commotion with his dad's passing, he has had to re-schedule. So, we have yet to get a check from them after 3-weeks and the reality of only having one real income is coming to a head. Ughhh.

*Going back to work yesterday, after 6-days off was very, very difficult. Not only because I had 6-days off and going back to work is always hard after being gone that long, but also because getting back into the swing of things was emotional and made things "real", not to mention AF is joining me today so I am crampy and bloated and uncomfortable and not to mention emotional. You mix those together and you have a blubbering, stumbling mom who would much rather sit at home and drink wine and eat chocolate cake!!

*On a fabulous really good note...I went to weigh in last Wednesday, really thinking after the long weekend of eating out of my control that I must have gained some weight, I didn't!! I lost another 2lbs. How, not sure, maybe stress, maybe my body finally said "OK, I see what you are trying to do and I will cooperate." Whatever it is, I was able to lose 9lbs total over 8 weeks. Not as good as I wanted to do (my goal was 2+ lbs per week), but the fact that I am losing weight without diet pills is really encouraging to me. But, I am a bit nervous to weigh in today. Not sure if I am going to skip it and wait till Friday, or just suck it up and go. With me being bloated and going another week without really exercising and eating outside of my control...I am a bit nervous. We will see, maybe I will just suck it up...go...and if I gained...I gained and will get back on the boat. Hmmm.

Other than those highlights...things are OK. Just OK though. Reality is back in our face and it kind of sucks. Only one income, bills still coming in, child care now has to be paid once a month rather than weekly, still trying to get DH's website for his business off to a start, still hitting ourselves over the head because DH decided to "settle" with his previous boss on less $$ than what he deserved, dealing with the fact that DH lost his father that I have lost my second father that my MIL is now a widow and my SIL will never have his father walk her down the isle, we need to get back in the game with going to church regularly, Jos is crying each day when I leave her at school because she doesn't want me to leave, my grandpa is not doing well and my mom is overwhelmed with what to do with him and his situation (which is a crazy situation)...shall I go on? Those are just a few of the things rolling around in my blubbering, bloated, stumbling head of mine! I know it will slow down and settle in soon...but until then, day by day.

Thank you all for your wonderful thoughts and prayers. They were felt by all of us over the past week. Prayer is amazing...not sure what people without faith do??