#1 Today, Praise God

I am stressed beyond belief. I am exhausted about being stressed. And I am burnt out about being exhausted.

On a good note...I have some praise God moments going on too.

Two weeks ago I took Miss J to get her ears checked out by the ENT (the one that put the tubes in her ears over two years ago, which fell out in February), but we have been worried about her ears again lately. Small things like when she says "school", it sounds a little bit like she is covering up her ears and trying to say it...muffled. Then her balance...so we went in and he said she had some fluid in her right ear and her hearing test came out to be a little less than desirable on that side. So he gave her an antibiotic and said to come back in a month. I immediately went to the chiropractor (Miss J has never been there, though I go regularly and JW has been going for his colic). So her first time...and it went well. I was hoping they could loosen up the fluid and open up her Eustachian tubes to drain the fluid. We weren't making much progress, in fact I was sure it had turned into an infection despite the antibiotics.

So last Friday, I took her in again, had the doc look in her ear and said that yes, there was some puss and still fluid. The doc did a procedure where she swiped her finger on the inside of her mouth to open up the Eustachian tube...well it worked. Today we went back to the ENT...and voila...no fluid at all!!! And just in 4-days!! Is that freaking amazing?!??!!

Praise God.

And then I was worried about JW having an ear infection. He had a small fever and has been pulling on his ears...I had the ENT take a quick look in his ears...and he did not have anything, no fluid, nothing!

Praise God.

See, I have been overly worried about my kids health the past weekend.

After we went to the chiropractor on Friday, that night Miss J woke up puking. Now, this is new to me, she has NEVER been sick like this. So the throwing up is just so gross and, just, yucky. Well she was puking a bunch through the night, then into the morning. Better in the afternoon and evening, but then back again on Sunday. So bad, we almost took her to the hospital to get her hydrated because we were worried about dehydration. But, she had a wet diaper (only the second in the past two days), so we held off. She puked until 10pm Sunday night.

Monday, seemed like a different girl...all better, no more puking...so I stayed home from work anyway to make sure. Then the diarrhea began. Twice. Come on...really...when is this going to end? Hasn't she been through enough this weekend, we have been through enough. Enough laundry, enough lethargy, enough crying, enough worry.

So I prayed. A lot last night, and this morning. Prayed for healing, for a miracle, for things to be better. Then the ENT answered those prayers.

And then when I took her to school today...they seemed to be blown again. They were telling everyone that any child who has just one bout of diarrhea will be sent home. They have had 13 kids sent home with this stomach virus and two with confirmed cases of Rotovirus. Knowing darn well that Miss J was not done with the diarrhea , I left her, thinking maybe I could get some work done and pray that I don't get a call. I did, just after noon. Ugh...do I have to leave work again, do I risk my hubby leaving work and possibly getting fired? Do I inconvenience someone else to try to watch her...so I left. Glad I have an understanding boss.

So, I am stressed. I am worried about the health of my children. I am worried about me and my husbands jobs. I am worried about our health (I have not been exercising nearly as much as I need to due to not enough time because of time off with appts and sickness). I am worried about the health of my mom (she had back surgery two weeks ago, and then went in a week later with a blood clot...she is recovering well right now). I am worried about my grandfather who is in a new memory care assisted living home in OKC, who is struggling with bladder cancer and the effects of dementia. I am worried about money, and the house, and getting normal every day things done (ok, keeping up with them). I am just too worried to worry and too stressed out.

Do not worry about anything but through prayer and petition...I know...the bible says. But I still am, though I pray daily, sometimes hourly and try to give it up to God.

Ugh...I don't like when it all hits at once. I know it will pass...but in the meantime...it is the meantime.

OK, thanks for letting me share. Thanks for saying a quick prayer for me, and my family. Thanks for reading and caring and loving me and missing me. I miss blogging...very therapeutic...but I have been busy at work and don't have much time to blog. But, now I know I can hook up to wireless through my work laptop at home!!! I can watch TV and get on the computer at the same time!! That is why I am online at 9:45 at night. Otherwise, I would probably be sound asleep, trying not to worry!

I will give you an update as things progress. Right now, I am blessed with a daughter who has clear ears and won't need tubes (again) right now. I am blessed JW is NOT sick (knock on wood), and I am blessed to have an understanding boss and jobs that we are able to still go to and get a paycheck each week!! We are blessed, God is good, and I have faith...