Up to (fast) speed

To bring you up to speed...

DH did lose his job yesterday. We still have not really talked about it. I was a bit livid with him when he called me around 3:30 and told me he was heading home after he deposited a check for $1600. I asked what that was for, and he went into to this very long, complicated, confusing story and pretty much mentioned that that is what he settled for with the owner from what he owed him. Waaaaahhhh. Hold the boat here...didn't they owe you some where around $8-10K?? What the heck are you doing settling with only $1600. I was getting a bit upset on the phone with him at work...so I said lets talk about this later when I get home.

We still didn't talk about it. I don't know why. I guess because we didn't want to yell. Because he didn't want to try to explain it any more (I think he was a bit embarrassed that he realized what he did), and I was just too plain tired.

I am also pretty upset with how relaxed he has been about the whole thing. I don't get it. Here I am freaking out about money and how long we can survive with only one income on the savings we have...and he is just non chalant, la-te-da-ish, and just acted like it was another day.

I am not sure what we are going to do right now. I know we have to discuss it. It isn't like us to NOT discuss something like this. I guess I am just waiting for my frustration to die down a bit because if we talk when we are both in this kind of mood all we do is get more upset and don't make any progress.

Hopefully tonight we will sit down, like husband and wife, and discuss what happened, and discuss what will be happening. Oh, gosh...

Work wise...my boss pulled me aside yesterday and said that we are going to get moving on this new project (he has actually been saying that for over a year now) and that he was putting me as the Lead on the project. Pretty cool seeing I have been bored out of my mind for over a year now and just recently had the inkling to possibly look for another job. Guess I will stick around a bit longer...not only because of the project, but because of the job situation with DH.

Uhgg...I need some sleep. I need some rest. I need to get this all off my chest and out in the open. I need some peace with all of the chaos going on in my head and in my world.

And to top it all off...I actually gained .6 lbs over the past two weeks. Another "piss me off" moment. I really should have done better. I really thought I would have made more progress with all the running and exercise I have been doing. WTF...this is what I get, huh. But seriously. I am not going to let this hit me too hard...I am going to get right back on the boat and start from the beginning again. I knew those first few weeks were too easy to start cruising along. A few more weeks of being VERY disciplined...and then maybe I can begin cruising again.

To another night....