Long week

It was a long week last week. DH started his new job on Tuesday. He had to be there by 7:30am so he left at about 6:45. I had gotten my shower and he got Miss J up. So by the time he had to leave, I was getting myself ready, had breakfast with Miss J, got her dressed, and we were out the door by 7:30. We were able to do this every morning last week.

Not sure how we did it, but we did...except for the temper tantrums.

Which, by the way, she had another one Tuesday night, then Wednesday morning and evening, then Thursday morning and evening and finally one on Friday.

Yeah...and these weren't just your normal temper tantrums that you could find something to distract her or ignore her or set her in her room to cry for a few minutes...she would not calm down for anything. And it was crazy crying, wailing her hands, crying "mamamamamama"...yet she didn't want "mamamamamama". She just wanted to cry. By Thursday morning, I had had it and decided since she didn't want to put her shoes or shirt on, that we would leave as is and I would put them on when we got to school.

So we left the house, her following me, crying and wailing her hands for the whole neighborhood to hear. She cried all the way to school, and didn't stop until we pulled up and she said "Friends"...

Is that all she wanted, her friends. Wow, I felt like a failure and tried to keep from crying my own tears until I got back into my car. Which I did, and I cried, and felt miserable that I didn't know what to do and I didn't know how I was going to be able to do this each day and what was wrong with me.

I am still not sure if it was the fact that daddy wasn't around to have breakfast with her each morning, not to mention he ended up working late and wasn't able to get home until just before or after Miss J's bedtime. Or if it was just lack of sleep. Or if it is just beginning a new stage of temper tantrums that I get to trial and error the best way to diffuse them.

Ugh...it was crazy. I am glad it is over and I am glad DH had Saturday off. It was nice to spend the weekend with him after a long week of barely seeing him.

His job...not too sure. The fact that he worked between 10-12 hours a day for four days straight, is not a great sign. But, it was his first week and I would think it is not too bad since he was "training" and all. But if this goes on this week too...something is going to have to be done. He should only be working 9-10 hour days (which is still long), but leaving before his daughter gets up and coming home after his daughter in bed is going to be a problem. Especially once BP2 arrives. I can't handle both of them.

So it is still a wait and see. It started off good, he had a good feeling about the people and and business, but he hasn't gotten into the nitty gritty yet. We shall see. I have patience...and just hope DH has the same kind of patience and keeps the mindset that this is not his career right now, it is a means to some income and we may just have to deal with some small inconveniences right now.

I pray that today will be better, that he will get an actual schedule for when he is scheduled to work and that when it is time to leave, that he starts to make his way to the door and doesn't get caught up in feeling like he is obligated to help every customer that walks into the door because no one else is...but that is where the problem is...no one else is, but his morals tell him to be the bigger man and stick around and help out. But that is why he is there until 7:30pm. Ugh...vicious cycle.

So, good, but not so good. Give it time, we will see how things go.

I know I owe you some pictures. I will try to download them off the camera tonight. I am just exhausted after I put Miss J to bed without DH being home. But I will try tonight and have some new pics this week.

Here is to a better week...clink!!